Sometimes I forget what kind of world we live in these days.  I go about my days and I don’t think about the horrible possibilities.  I stop looking at people on the train who seem suspicious and I don’t think twice about getting on a plane and I live in blissful ignorance of the evil that is out there in the world.

But then something happens…a lunatic walks into a movie theater and opens fire on the crowd or walks into a school and kills babies who haven’t even begun to live or decides to set off bombs during the Boston Marathon, killing or injuring hundreds of people…and I remember.  I remember what a scary and fucked up place the world can be.

When things like this happen, I just want to go home, lock the doors and never come out.  I certainly don’t want to take public transportation and I don’t want to work in New York City.  Hell…I don’t even want to go to the grocery store.  But that’s the point right?  The people who do these things…that’s exactly what they want.  They want to kill us, but they also want to destroy our way of life.  They want to make us afraid.  They want to change us.  And it’s so easy to let that happen.  It’s so easy to let the fear become paralyzing.

But we can’t.  We can’t let evil dictate how we live our lives.  So I won’t go home and hide in the closet.  I will keep taking public transportation and I will keep working in New York City.  I will attend sporting events and concerts.  I will fly on planes.  I will do whatever it is that I want to do…because fuck those people who think they can change us and make us afraid.

Last night, I sat on the couch and I watched the news coverage of the bombings through tears.  When I heard an 8-year-old boy was killed and his 6-year-old sister lost her leg, I just couldn’t take it anymore and I had to turn it off.  But today I’ve read so many amazing stories.  Stories of runners who kept running…all the way to Mass General to donate blood.  Stories of doctors who were running the race and stopped to help the injured.  Stories of Boston residents opening their homes to people who needed help.  Today, those are the stories I want to focus on.  I want to hear about the good that is left in the world instead the evil.

Maybe if we all go out today and do something nice for someone else, we can make the world a better place and we can take one step toward getting rid of the evil.

My thoughts and prayers are with everyone in Boston.



  1. You are so right about all of this. The other day I was talking about this with a co-worker and I recalled years ago, when I was really young and my parents were young, and all we seemed to fear was bombs and A-bombs from other countries hurting us, not people IN our country hurting us. We didn’t have fears like plants hitting buildings on terrorist missions, the threat seemed close but still SO far away years ago.

    I think you are correct, we need to focus on the helpers, the people that dug in deep and took care of those in need, and the givers and the people that were doing positive things. If we focus on the negative and the bad parts we give them the power.

    I will live cautiously but I am not giving into evil – I won’t give them that advantage over me.

    Well written girl!!! Be safe, and fight evil! ox

  2. WOW, I have been a no good, very bad blog friend lately :( I’m so very sorry for that, Shana. I think of you often and have really, really missed you.

    I was so devastated to hear about this story. So upset for the beautiful city of Boston and for its citizens who were hoping to show up for a fun marathon race. No one deserves to replace our normal rituals with fear, panic, and anxiety.

    You are doing the right thing by continuing to live your life. I can only hope that evil doers in this world will learn that spirits are no so easily broken. XOXO

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