I have crossed another item off my 101 list!
I took Monday off work for a doctor’s appointment…but that’s not the only thing I did that day. I also did #74…a boudoir photo shoot.
I first started planning this shoot back in August when I received a Groupon for it. At the time I was doing great with my weight loss and I thought by the time the actual shoot rolled around, I’d be super skinny and ready for it.
Well…I was wrong. My diet sort of stalled and I wasn’t where I wanted to be. I put off scheduling my appointment as long as I could, but my Groupon was about to expire and I didn’t have a choice. So I made the appointment.
As the days crept up on me, I couldn’t figure out what I wanted to wear. Nothing I was finding was coming close to my vision for these photos…and nothing really felt like me. Most of what I tried on made me feel like a little kid playing dress up…or a hooker…and since it’s so close to Valentine’s Day everything was covered in hearts. Not quite the look I wanted.
Finally, in the very last store…on the very last rack…I found something that I thought would be ok, so I bought it and went home. I didn’t even try it on…I just paid and left with the feeling that it would be better than nothing.
On Monday morning, I did my hair and makeup with a knot in my stomach. I was so nervous I thought I was going to be sick. What had I done??? I don’t prance around half-naked in front of strangers! I don’t let people take my picture with all my clothes on and now I was getting ready to let someone take pictures of me in my underwear!!! What was I thinking???
This was the worst idea ever.
But it was too late to cancel. I just had to suck it up and go. Luckily, I had to make a call for work so I was distracted on the drive over. Before I knew it, I was standing in the studio, changing into lingerie. My hands were shaking and I was eyeing the door. BECAUSE I AM NOT SEXY AND I DON’T DO THINGS LIKE THIS!!! But I look a deep breath and turned away from the door.
When I was ready, I turned and I looked into the mirror…and I looked HOT! Seriously. My makeup was perfect and my hair was fantastic…and the outfit that I thought would be just ok was so amazing on me that it looked like it was made for me. I started to think that maybe this wasn’t such a terrible idea after all.
I walked out and the photographer took a few test shots to check the lighting while I stood awkwardly in the middle of the room. She could tell I was nervous so she started talking to me about my job and my life to loosen me up. She was ready to get started and told me how to pose for the first shot and then had me start moving around. Once she started shooting, I started to get really comfortable. She stopped telling me what to do and how to stand and just let me do whatever I wanted.
As she shot, she showed me a few of the pictures and they were great. She did a brilliant job.
After we were done and I left the studio, I felt amazing and sexy and confident. No…my body is not perfect, but that doesn’t mean I’m not beautiful. That is something I tend to forget…but now, every time I look at those photos, I will remember.
I really encourage you all to do this if you haven’t already. It was such an amazing experience and I’m so happy I did it.
It really was the best idea ever.
I haven’t gotten the pictures yet, but I will post a few when they are ready.