A few Christmases ago I bought J a pet-cam so he could watch Sadie while he was at work. I thought he’d get a kick out of it and he did. Of all the awesome presents I’ve bought him over the years, he will tell you that the pet cam was his favorite.
J has major guilt over leaving the dogs home alone while we got to work. While we don’t crate them, they are confined to a relatively small area of the house. They have access to water and all their toys and they have nice beds with lots of cozy blankets, but they are still alone and they do get bored…as evidenced by the chewed up banister and molding and dining room furniture. So J feels bad for them and wishes he could be home with them all day.
I have always taken the position that we go to work because we have to go to work and as much as the dogs are my babies, they are still dogs and they are fine being home all day…just like almost every other dog in the world. Besides are dogs are extremely spoiled and have a pretty nice life for themselves…being home alone during the day isn’t going to kill them.
I was never able to connect to the camera website at work, but they recently made some changes to the server and now I can. So for the past week I’ve been watching the girls periodically from work. J and I also changed our work schedules around and now instead of me leaving first in the morning, I leave last. And instead of seeing the girls snuggled up to J in bed, I see their little faces looking at me from the window as I walk down the street.
It’s killing me. I mean, basically they just sleep all day with the exception of when the mailman comes and they bark like lunatics. But they just look kind of sad and lonely to me. They look so much happier when I’m home with them. I thought it would make me feel better to be able to watch them all day, but it’s actually making me feel worse and miss them more.
I have no idea how people with kids go back to work.
So I’ve been suggesting to J that I become a stay-at-home doggie mom. And he’s not entirely against the idea. If only I could still get paid…I would do it in a second. Unfortunately, the paycheck is too important at the moment. But the hunt is on for a new job or a new career that will allow me to work from home or spend more time at home so my poor puppies aren’t alone and sad.
Am I totally crazy? Do other dog parents feel this way?