What smells so good???

When I did Weight Watchers a bunch of years ago, I spent a lot of time at meetings and reading the message boards.  I often heard this thought expressed…”I can’t even eat fast food/pizza/cheeseburgers/Chinese food anymore.  Even the smell of it makes me sick.”  Every time I heard someone say that, I would roll my eyes and think “Bullshit!”.  Maybe for some people that’s true…but I think the majority of people who made that claim were just trying to convince themselves it was true. 

Personally, I would never say something like that…because that would never be true for me.  Even after I’d been on Weight Watchers and even after I’d lost 50 pounds and even after I was wearing jeans that made my ass look so good that even Erin commented on it…even then, I still craved salty fries and greasy burgers.  Pizza, too…in my house we live by the theory that even bad pizza is good pizza.  And in my world…there is nothing better than Chinese food.  I swear I’d eat it every day. 

Those kinds of cravings are exactly why I decided to go with Jenny Craig this time around instead of going back to Weight Watchers.  Especially in the beginning, I wanted a strict plan that didn’t give me a lot of wiggle room.  Because I can justify eating just about anything on Weight Watchers…but then I pay for it later.

I’ve been doing great so far with the JC food.  I’ve been sticking to the plan and not feeling hungry and I really haven’t been tempted. 

Until this weekend. 

This weekend practically killed me.  All I wanted to do was eat.  I wanted to eat the pigs in blanket I made for J and my grandfather for lunch…and the cheese and crackers and pepperoni I put out for them.  I wanted the stromboli that J ate for dinner.  I wanted to eat the home-made chocolate chip cookies I made, stacked three on top of each other…possibly with cake frosting in between.  I wanted popcorn and chips and cereal and ice cream and pizza…man, did I want pizza. 

I had to keep reminding myself that I was doing so great and I didn’t want to blow all the good I’ve done so far for a stupid mini hot dog or a plain chocolate chip cookie.  I want to wait for Ally to buy me dinner so I can splurge on the best brownie sundae ever made.  And I want to be able to fit more comfortably in the chair while I’m eating it!  On Sunday morning, when I put on my formerly tight jeans and they were somewhat loose and soooo comfortable, my resolve to avoid the “bad” foods was strengthened.  I could do this!

Until I got into the car with a bag from Burger King. 

I was out running errands and I stopped to pick up lunch for J.  A whopper with cheese, french fries and onion rings…things I love.  And they smelled so freaking good.  I absolutely lost all willpower and I couldn’t take it another second. 

I ate a french fry.  And an onion ring. 

Just one of each, but one was enough.  They were the best BK fry and onion ring I’ve ever tasted.  I ate each one slowly and really tasted it…instead of mindlessly shoving them in my mouth while watching tv.  Delicious. 

It didn’t completely kill my cravings and I still wanted cookies and cheese later on…and not at the same time…but I was able to make do with my tuna salad and crackers and salad.  I also made some fresh zucchini last night and it was so good that I could almost ignore the pizza J was scarfing down.

Almost!  I did take a few deep sniffs of it though…and it smelled terrific.

Comments

  1. I honestly don’t know how you do it…
    You are the best girlfriend IN THE WORLD!
    I’m glad that you allowed yourself a morsel of greasy goodness, but it makes me even happier that you stopped yourself after that one.
    And seriously…I think you officially qualify for Sainthood.

  2. *applause* Good for you!! It’s so hard to watch those around you eat whatever they want.

    I would love to join JC instead of WW. I’ve actually been thinking about creating my own thing kind of in the middle. Like try to restrict myself to only eating WW Smart Ones meals or something. Then I know, if it’s not WW made it’s not ok. You are totally right, you can justify just about anything on WW.

  3. GOOD FOR YOU!!! I have the hardest time ordering a salad at any fast food place when eating with Mike. I would avoid them at all costs otherwise. You did the smartest thing you could do. Savor the taste of each one.

    When I eat at places like that with Mike. I take about 1-5 fries and eat them on the side of my salad. After eating most of my salad I realize I get the flavor if the few fries and I’m over it.

    You can do this girl – and I can to! WE ALL CAN!!! oxoxo

  4. So, as you may have noticed on FB, my cuz and I went to a little thing called the SEC TOURNAMENT CHAMPIONSHIP GAME this weekend…where my beloved UK Cats ate a little FL gator on Sunday. And since I was with my cousin, I ate what my cousin ate…Applebee’s (mozzarella sticks), Max’s Pizza (pizza AND garlic knots), and Popeye’s (shrimp po boy). And it was all delicious…but not *quite* as delicious as I remember it being. I wasn’t craving these things…it was just a convenience thing. And now I’m having my stuffed clams for lunch that I made last Friday and loving them. So, I’m back on the wagon and headed to work out in a few hours. It didn’t hurt as bad as I thought when I fell off and it’s a pretty short climb back on. When you buy my dinner, it’s going to be the best food I’ve ever had.

  5. Good job! I’m so proud of your will power!

  6. Baby Bro says:

    Ok let me start by saying that you have more will power then me. I would have eaten all of them and given J and empty bag. However if Ris was doing JC there is no way in hell I would be able to eat BK any where near her, much less have her get it for me. J is a lucky man to have such a good woman. Lol. Keep up the good work and soon enough you will get your brownie sundae and all the pizza you want and you’ll get to enjoy them in your skinny jeans.

  7. It sounds like you are doing a really good job staying on track. I would never have been able to bake cookies and then not eat at least 5 of them.

  8. WOW, I am SOOOO SUPER IMPRESSED with your willpower, Shana. Seriously. You deserve to pat yourself on the back for being able to hold out when you have those items in front of you. Because that’s usually when all rationale goes out the window. “It’s just one fry,” becomes “What’s a small order of fries?” but you were able to resist the urge and eat just one of each. That is quite a feat!

    And you will feel soooo good when you can put on your sexy jeans and STRUT YOUR STUFF! :)

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