I am not a fan of New Year’s resolutions…I think it’s basically just setting yourself up for failure. However, this year, resolutions were in order. When I started this blog things were a little out of control for me. I had a to-do list a mile long, I had let a lot of things go and I was in a major rut. I was unhappy and J and I were having problems because of it.
I stared this blog as a way to organize my thoughts and my life. I came here and started posting my weekly tasks as a way to keep myself accountable because if I told you all I was going to do something, I had to get it done or at least try to get it done. After a few weeks, I stopped posting my weekly list, because I was afraid it was kind of boring. I mean, who really cares if I have to clean out my closet or finish my continuing education credits for my CPA license? I thought it was boring and it’s my life. So the blog evolved into something different…more of a commentary on my life that an account of what I was doing to get myself back on track.
The good news, is that though I stopped constantly writing about it, I continued to check things off my list. I started with a to-do list that was about 60 items long and I’ve consistently whittled it down to a measly 5 things…5 things that were not on the original list either. So it took me two months, but finally, instead of a behemoth reminder of how lazy and out of control I’d gotten, I have a nice, normal to-do list.
I am not letting the progress stop here. It’s now on to the next set goals. These are much more long-term goals are going to take more to accomplish than a trip to the DMV or a few hours spent cleaning the closet. The list here is long as well and I’ve learned in the past that when I try to take on too much change at once I get overwhelmed and give up. So I’m going to start by concentrating on a few things at once and after I’ve got one thing down, I’ll add something new.
The biggest thing I have to tackle is losing weight. I’ve struggled with my weight for a long time and it’s been a roller coaster for sure. But over the last two years my weight has just continued to creep up and I’m now heavier than I’ve ever been. I don’t feel good…everything hurts and aches…and I definitely don’t look good. Buying clothes is torture and getting dressed in the morning is no fun. Losing weight is going to mean changing my eating habits and exercising. There’s a lot that I’m going to have to do on the road to thin.
Because of the weight gain, I just don’t feel attractive, which is manifesting itself in some really bad habits…like I don’t put makeup on every day. I kind of just feel like I don’t look good anyway, so why bother with makeup. I don’t like that I’ve gotten so lazy.
So the plan for this week is:
- Start to change my eating habits – no more ordering in breakfast and lunch. I’m going grocery shopping today to stock up on healthier food and I’m getting rid of all the junk in the house. I plan to go back to Weight Watchers (I’ve had success on that program before), but I want to ease myself into the transition for a week or so before I start.
- Drinking more water and less Diet Coke – I drink a lot of Diet Coke. It’s gross. I have a water bottle on my desk and my goal for the week is to fill that up at least once a day to replace some of the chemical laden soda.
- Wear makeup every single day – it takes five minutes, but so many days I just don’t do it. Yes, my face is chubby and that’s not going to change with makeup. But I can cover my dark circles and put on some mascara and make it a little better.
That’s what I’m going to work on this week. I’ll let you know my progress next week.
I hope everyone has a great week.