The next step…

I am not a fan of New Year’s resolutions…I think it’s basically just setting yourself up for failure.  However, this year, resolutions were in order.  When I started this blog things were a little out of control for me.  I had a to-do list a mile long, I had let a lot of things go and I was in a major rut.  I was unhappy and J and I were having problems because of it.

I stared this blog as a way to organize my thoughts and my life.  I came here and started posting my weekly tasks as a way to keep myself accountable because if I told you all I was going to do something, I had to get it done or at least try to get it done.   After a few weeks, I stopped posting my weekly list, because I was afraid it was kind of boring.  I mean, who really cares if I have to clean out my closet or finish my continuing education credits for my CPA license?   I thought it was boring and it’s my life.  So the blog evolved into something different…more of a commentary on my life that an account of what I was doing to get myself back on track.

The good news, is that though I stopped constantly writing about it, I continued to check things off my list.  I started with a to-do list that was about 60 items long and I’ve consistently whittled it down to a measly 5 things…5 things that were not on the original list either.  So it took me two months, but finally, instead of a behemoth reminder of how lazy and out of control I’d gotten, I have a nice, normal to-do list.   

I am not letting the progress stop here.  It’s now on to the next set goals.  These are much more long-term goals are going to take more to accomplish than a trip to the DMV or a few hours spent cleaning the closet.  The list here is long as well and I’ve learned in the past that when I try to take on too much change at once I get overwhelmed and give up.  So I’m going to start by concentrating on a few things at once and after I’ve got one thing down, I’ll add something new. 

The biggest thing I have to tackle is losing weight.  I’ve struggled with my weight for a long time and it’s been a roller coaster for sure.  But over the last two years my weight has just continued to creep up and I’m now heavier than I’ve ever been.  I don’t feel good…everything hurts and aches…and I definitely don’t look good.  Buying clothes is torture and getting dressed in the morning is no fun.  Losing weight is going to mean changing my eating habits and exercising.  There’s a lot that I’m going to have to do on the road to thin. 

Because of the weight gain, I just don’t feel attractive, which is manifesting itself in some really bad habits…like I don’t put makeup on every day.  I kind of just feel like I don’t look good anyway, so why bother with makeup.  I don’t like that I’ve gotten so lazy.

So the plan for this week is:

  1. Start to change my eating habits – no more ordering in breakfast and lunch.  I’m going grocery shopping today to stock up on healthier food and I’m getting rid of all the junk in the house.  I plan to go back to Weight Watchers (I’ve had success on that program before), but I want to ease myself into the transition for a week or so before I start.
  2. Drinking more water and less Diet Coke – I drink a lot of Diet Coke.  It’s gross.  I have a water bottle on my desk and my goal for the week is to fill that up at least once a day to replace some of the chemical laden soda. 
  3. Wear makeup every single day – it takes five minutes, but so many days I just don’t do it.  Yes, my face is chubby and that’s not going to change with makeup.  But I can cover my dark circles and put on some mascara and make it a little better.

That’s what I’m going to work on this week.  I’ll let you know my progress next week.

I hope everyone has a great week.


  1. I know how you feel! I just started a few weeks ago on my quest to be healthier and loose weight. Making the commitment and the goals are the first step. Good job!

  2. I find if you actually tell yourself every day I WILL DRINK WATER you can accomplish it. I’ve gotten a lot better at it!

  3. I personally think that posting your goals on your blog is a GREAT way to make sure you achieve them. Being held accountable is one of the most important techniques. My weight gain bothers me, too. I’ve tried to tackle this by doing a menu plan each Sunday and then grocery shopping for it. I used to be a “what am I in the mood for tonight” eater..but now I’m a “what’s on the menu for tonight” girl. It has cut down on the grocery bill AND it’s much healthier than deciding that I’m in the mood for Red Robin or Panera tonight. The water thing is HARD for me. I end up drowning it with Crystal Light because I simply hate the taste of water. I like the taste of Diet Coke MUCH better. 😉 But you walk to and from the bus, so that’s exercise that most people never get. And from your other posts, it sounds like it’s not exactly a flat walk.

    Also? I’m not really a makeup kind of girl. But I try to at least do base, mascara, powder, and blush with lip gloss everyday. I tell myself that the base is the bare minimum since it has sunscreen in it. 😉

    Very intrigued by this thought on moving to CT. You know they don’t get their spring any sooner, right?

    • See, I’ve been trying the menu thing. The problem is that the things on the menu are like macaroni and cheese and baked ziti with tons of cheese. It’s also the portion size. J says I cook like I’m feeing 40 people instead of just two.

      I know CT doesn’t get their spring any sooner, but it’s so pretty there. Where we live, houses are pretty tight and there are a million cars and we are only a block away from a major road and our backyard looks out over the top of a bank. In CT everything is so spreadout because there are a lot of lakes and ponds and trees and prettyness. All the houses we are looking at have backyards that look out over green things and are lovely. To have that in Westchester, where we live now, we would have to pay a bajillion dollars in real estate taxes.

  4. Good for you Shana! Everything starts with a goal and you can do it! I’ll be here to cheer you on! 😉

  5. i am sooo insanely jealous that you have been able to cross so many things off your list. you are seriously an inspiration- and it sounds like you will so be able to commit to these. i need to tackle the same things you do, so i hear you…
    keep us posted on how you do! :)

    also, a note on the water thing. i know it sounds like a lot- but i have a 64oz klean kanteen on my desk all day, and i find i almost finish it by the time i leave work everyday…i think sipping on it throughout the day makes it easy to get it in.
    good luck! :)

  6. Go Shana Go! You can do it! Setting goals is the first step. I’ll be here to root you on every step of the way! Good luck!

  7. I have gained back all my pre-wedding weight loss. The best way I have ever lost weight was just to write down everything I ate and the calories. It’s pretty annoying but it worked for me. Good luck.

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